I have to say that I felt a bit of guilt while we were at the hospital. I felt like, because I really believe in natural cures and am all about limiting unnecessary medication, I had somehow failed by bringing Jacob to the hospital. I know that might sound silly, but it's what I felt. Like maybe I could have done something else, even though we had been trying all recommended at home remedies for days. As I held Jacob in my arms in the dark hospital room, I realized those thoughts were crazy. Jacob was breathing better than he had in days, was finally nursing well, and was sleeping peacefully for the first time in a week. I am glad to have some knowledge of herbal remedies, I'm glad when they work, and I'm super glad to live somewhere where I have access to doctors and medicine that will help my boy breathe. From the time I was pregnant I've struggled to find this balance. I thankfully had the medicine-free birth I hoped for, but I did a lot of reading on the different medications and treatments that I could possibly need. I didn't love the thought of having to have intervention (ahem, pride), but I hated the thought of not knowing what could be put into my body. I'm reminding myself every day that what matters is that I'm educated on what goes into my family's body- natural or manmade. And to trust my mama instincts.
We're still fighting off the last of this sickness, but he's able to sleep now, which is working wonders for his recovery. I think he'll be back to his normal unstoppable self in no time! No wonder he was being so clingy, poor guy!!